$Broadcom(AVGO.US)$SPDR S&P 500(SPY.US)$Apple(AAPL.US)Trading is constantly doubting yourself, inflating yourself, from heaven to hell, then to the ground, and then falling hard again, constantly denying yourself, making you question life. I bought a short-term option when it fell more than four points, and then it kept falling to almost eight points, the option was almost halved. I kept doubting whether I was right, whether I should add to my position, can my understanding handle it? Mentally struggling, my mind kept echoing that if this goes to zero, three months' salary would be gone 😔. In the end, I didn't add to my position, now it rebounded to more than four points, and I'm considering whether to sell, almost breaking even. Last time with Apple, I sold out of panic, but if I had held until now, it would have been tens of thousands of dollars. Life is full of disappointments, emotions must stay calm.

Honestly, this kind of physical and mental exhaustion is quite painful in the trading process. Human nature is extremely averse to losses, and trading is against human nature. I clearly chose to invest in U.S. stocks initially for financial management, to continuously increase my assets, to have passive income, but now I'm speculating under the guise of value investing, which is wrong. I must clearly recognize what I'm doing. Value investing means adding to index positions during big drops and selling during big rises, not constantly playing with options, double leverage, etc. This has completely deviated from the original path, so the principal is getting smaller and smaller, going in the opposite direction, sigh.

For most people, they can't even beat the S&P 500, so choosing to regularly invest in SPY is the best. If you must buy options, be prepared for them to go to zero. Think about your salary for a few months, think about eating something good, otherwise, never use leveraged options. Protecting your principal is the best, leave the rest to time.