I realized I'm not cut out to be a gambler because I simply don't have the nerves for it. Take the Micron trade I made yesterday, for example. It was just 20,000 yuan, but I was already on edge and couldn't handle it at all. The moment I saw the option jump 5 points in a minute, I closed my position. There's no way I could have held until the end. Those who can ride out 2x, 3x, or even 10x gains truly have nerves of steel. I'm growing more and more contemptuous of myself. In the past, I could shrug off daily fluctuations of over a hundred thousand in losses, but now, with just over a hundred thousand left, a few thousand in daily volatility keeps me up at night. I really am becoming more worthless as I go on. Do I still have a chance to turn things around? It feels like the whole world is in turmoil...