2026.02.21 Cleaning room 1

I just wanted to tidy up my room a bit, but it unexpectedly turned into a spiritual journey 🥹
At one moment, things related to him kept appearing, making me reminisce and question myself: in this relationship, were there areas where I didn't do well enough/could have done better?
At another moment, things about myself surfaced, making me introspect and seriously examine: what exactly have I been doing these past few years, why has time passed so quickly, have I grown professionally during this time? I miss those days of chasing dreams with all my might, even though what I achieved was insignificant. But I really miss that time, the days of self-doubt and fear but constantly cheering myself on and immersing myself in learning.
PS: I really like "East China Normal University". Is it possible for me to embark on the next dream-chasing journey... Let me first figure out my inner motivations clearly. I don't want to just stay at a superficial level of motivation; I want to have a dialogue with my soul.
I know that although I'm slow, once I decide I want something, I'll give it my all, and indeed, heaven has always been watching over me. Thank you! Although we do our best and leave the rest to fate, I'm grateful to heaven! I'm also grateful for meeting him and grateful for my own efforts during that time.

The dust in this box is like sealed memories and my dust-covered soul (those memories with him, those memories related to myself).