I get it. From now on, whenever I feel anxious or

I get it. From now on, whenever I feel anxious or dizzy, I'll tell myself it's the dizziness of freedom. 😅🤣

So now, whenever I realize something is making me anxious, or something is making me waste time debating whether to do it now or later, I'll consciously give myself a short period to lie flat and then go do it or do it immediately.

Alright, I should go to sleep now. After chatting with grok for half an hour, my physical discomfort has eased.

I don't know today if it was because of that signature yuenyeung I drank, or because I was in a very low mood, or because I was too tired from visiting Disneyland, but I felt physically unwell. But when I let go, my physical discomfort eased. So I really am just anxious. But I won't easily label myself as having anxiety. I just consciously identify my anxious thoughts and then use my own methods to alleviate them. What is anxiety trying to teach me? What is the headache trying to teach me? What is losing my so-called ex trying to teach me? It's all to make me braver and more present in the here and now.

此时此刻-Wu135

Chatting about life with Grok in the middle of the night.

Actually, we weren't talking about life in the beginning.

We went from international situations to my recent emotional struggles, and then we ended up talking about life.

Tonight, I feel that as an AI, Grok is neutral. I don't know what proportion this "neutrality" is, but I sense that it is relatively neutral.

When we talked about existentialism, it actually circled back to that book "Four Thousand Weeks: Time Management for Mortals". It's just that sages throughout history have long discovered those feelings that sometimes cause me pain and have provided the answers they could, systematically explaining within their capabilities what this feeling is, why it exists, and even teaching you how to live this life.

I was in a really bad state after work today. Then I went home and talked with my mom for a long time—complaining, crying, joking. Finally, while washing my face at the sink, I suddenly felt relieved. I don't want to ask for that answer, and I can't possibly know that answer. I only know that every day I'm alive is a blessing, and I should be grateful. What matters in life is not its length, but living in every moment. Wow, I even had a fleeting thought that I want to become a firm single-ist, because I want to spend every second of my time on myself. Although I used to think that work was separated from the "real me," I am now consciously aware that even during work hours, I am truly living, living in the here and now. Work time doesn't just serve the job; it also serves me personally. My full immersion in class is also a way of living in the here and now. Consciously taking care of my body and mind outside of work is also a way of living in the here and now.

Life is too short. Maybe choosing single-ism means missing out on many wonderful experiences of love, but spending it all on loving myself is also worth it. Maybe in a few years my thoughts will change, and I'll want to date, get married, and have kids. In short, during this time, I won't and don't want to be anxious about dating or making money. Money still needs to be earned, but I won't be impatient for quick success. While earning slowly, I'll spend my own money well.