我做了一个美梦，可惜梦碎了

As someone who has struggled and climbed up from the bottom, it's natural to fantasize about making a name for oneself. The downturn in business over the past two years gave me the idea to increase my side income. Later, I came into contact with U.S. stocks. When I first entered the U.S. stock market, I blindly bought, chased rallies, and sold on dips, which led to my assets being halved. Fortunately, during the big crash in April 2025, I luckily bought SOXL and barely managed to get close to breaking even.

After breaking even, I came into contact with zero-day options and experienced the feeling of making quick money. Initially, testing the waters with very small positions and a few small wins by going with the trend gave me an illusion—that I had grasped some tricks, glimpsed the market's ways, and mastered a method to make small daily profits. However, the options market changes rapidly and is an extreme test of human nature and mindset. While I was immersed in the false prosperity of profits, danger was also approaching me. It wasn't until my account suffered huge losses that I realized I wasn't some chosen one, lacking extraordinary talent. After that, I often made small gains but suffered big losses.

Only when my account was in a mess did I wake up as if from a dream: I am just an ordinary person, nothing special. In terms of mindset, capital, and market sense, I am just the most humble of "naive investors." I thought that with small capital, the only way to achieve high returns was to go all in, not knowing that this path is littered with the bones of the many who didn't survive.

Looking at the various types of impressive people shining in the community, I really admire many of them. I just want to continue learning and improving alongside them. I sincerely wish everyone could choose the right path for themselves and get better and better. As for me, I am going through a breakdown, a spiritual confusion, and I hope to find my way out of the fog.