Stock Live Trading P137: What kind of vow should I make?

QQQ really has it in for me; I lose every time I play it. Like a while back, I shorted it for three consecutive days, and it surged for three days straight. I swore I would never short QQQ again, but then on the fourth day, it opened high and closed low, and then fell for a whole week. Last Friday, following my friend's advice, I shorted QQQ, and it surged. Yesterday, refusing to give up, I shorted QQQ again, and it surged again. This thing really has a vendetta against me. Maybe my market sense is just terrible; my compatibility with the market is zero, completely opposite.

Then, when it hit 616 yesterday, I couldn't take it anymore and gave up. But then it instantly dropped to 613. If I had held, I could have tripled my money. It's really torturous. But the week before last, I held on stubbornly, even when it got halved, and in the end, it went to zero. I can't figure out why QQQ has such a perfect read on my psychology.

I really swear I'm done playing QQQ this time. I've sworn a million times before, but this time I mean it. How serious of a vow do I need to make to never touch it again? Can you all help me think of one?

I really can't take it anymore. If I hadn't touched QQQ yesterday, my profit should have been over 3000, but because I touched that thing, my profit turned into just 200 bucks. And Amazon, I went all in during the night market yesterday, only to see it open high and then drop. Of course, after the market opened, it opened low and then rose. This thing is hopeless. And Microsoft, it was oscillating every day before, and I was reluctant to do a covered call. Finally, when I did one, it took off. I sold at 408, and now it's at 416. I can't even catch up if I try. What should I do?

Back then with Trip.com, I was still feeling flush with cash and boldly bought 3000 bucks worth of Coke's options. Now they're worthless. Can I apply for a minor refund? Trip.com, oh Trip.com, my heart is full of tears.