I'll have to say goodbye to everyone for now.

As shown in the picture, this is my "last dance." I FOMO'd and went all in on Microsoft calls.

Similar posts are not uncommon in the community, but I'm not here to give you a warning post. As the title says, it's just a farewell for a temporary departure, or rather, a thank you. I sincerely hope to see you all again when I have some capital. If I've disturbed you, I apologize here.

Before reading the following text, I want to make a prior statement. Actually, I rarely speak in this kind of forum, and my comments are few and far between. To be honest, I am a bit thin-skinned, so I hope you'll be kind.

It's actually quite emotional. Four months ago, I never thought that one day I would be wiped out. This money was earned from tutoring sessions, one by one, since my freshman year, plus starting a handmade shop business, then selling it, all together I only managed to save up a little over 100k. I experienced doubling along the way, and also experienced being cut in half. In the middle, I averaged down on PATH options, causing my account to lose 70% at one point—that was during the time software stocks were getting their valuations slashed. (Please don't misunderstand, I know full well that investment gains and losses are my own responsibility. I'm not blaming Brother Cola, nor do I have the right to.) Later, I recovered to break even at 70%, couldn't control my greed, added BRK's 6.18 options, had three chances to exit but didn't, and the result goes without saying. And then finally, today's last dance. I don't know how to describe my current mood. Relief? Pain? Helplessness?

But I think these things aren't that important anymore. A loss is a loss. What I'm most reluctant to part with is actually the content everyone shares in the community, @Miracle Trader Cola   Brother Cola's 'Spark Collection,' and some casual essays. These articles gave me many new perspectives on the world. Writing this, I feel like crying a bit. My brain is a bit numb, and my words are a bit illogical. If I had held the underlying stock, could I still look at this community more now?

@Caizi   Brother Caizi is a very impressive and also a very good person. How high his returns are goes without saying, but sometimes he feels pressure from his own recommendations. Knowing that sharing easily invites criticism, he still keeps sharing his views. I hope there's less resentment in the comments section. I think being able to see the perspectives of bloggers like Brother Value, Brother Cola, Brother Caizi, Sister Youyou@Luyouyou is really a rare thing. Looking back at these people and this content now, I truly regret it deeply. I'm afraid I won't have the fortune to enjoy it for a while. My trading model also needs further optimization and adjustment.

I think this should be the second low point in my life. The first was in high school when I played CS skins. Back then, my allowance was 2000 a month. I saved for a year, met a few guides who flipped them back and forth and made a few thousand, but in the end, I was tricked by a so-called "Steam customer service," losing 30k in an instant. At the time, I felt like the sky had fallen. Time heals all wounds, but time didn't heal my unwillingness to accept it. There's an old saying that goes, a person has two hearts: one is called greed, and the other is called unwillingness. My university major is related to finance, so I got into investing, leading to today's story.

My current plan is to continue making time for tutoring to accumulate funds. I'm a sophomore now. I'll wait until I apply for grad school and get into a Hong Kong master's program to restart investing, or invest while saving. If there's a good opportunity, I'll try entrepreneurship again. If any of you have good ideas, I hope we can exchange more.

Getting to the end, before leaving, I still have a few questions I'd like to ask the bloggers.

First, how should I deal with my lingering regrets? A few days ago, I held ASTS puts, sold them at the close, and they went up tenfold the next day. And IGV calls—I had 50k in my account at the time, sold them and missed the rally, which later quadrupled. What I fear most is being lured back by these high-return, low-probability events after I return to the market. After all, these things are already engraved in my heart. I'm afraid of being tempted by these memories and then coming back empty-handed again, which I don't want to see. The psychology of wanting to break even is hard to overcome. The best solution I can think of is to save up principal equal to the amount of my losses before trying the stock market again.

Second, is it still necessary for me to keep following the US stock market? I'm wondering if this might not only fail to create positive feedback but instead create negative feedback, watching myself miss out on a bull market with my own eyes, feeling worse and worse.

After the college entrance exam, I really haven't written an article in a long time. My language expression might have some issues, a bit numb. I hope you'll be understanding.

In the end, I'm really happy to have met you all. I sincerely wish you all smooth investing. It might sound a bit formal, but it's all from the heart.

I hope that two years from now, this community will still be the same everyone.

I think I'll sleep very well tonight because I have nothing left to lose. At the same time, I hope this is a turning point in my growth.

Good night. May we meet again.